Thursday, July 07, 2005

Riding the Adoption Roller Coaster

I've often heard others say that the adoption process is like a roller coaster ride, with many ups and downs. In fact, there are many similarities between riding a roller coaster and adoption.

With both adoption and roller coasters, you wait eagerly in anticipation to experience it. Once on the roller coaster, you are filled with many conflicting emotions -- fear, excitement, exhilaration, uncertainty. And, of course, there are the ups and downs!

Since beginning the adoption process, we have been faced with many ups and downs. Some days you are hopeful you will become a parent soon. Other days you feel like it will never happen. Your mood fluctuates from being excited and looking forward to having a child to being sad, frustrated and depressed when nothing happens or when a potential situation doesn't work out. I would guess you go through these feelings over and over again until you successfully adopt.

We are still hopefully waiting for that moment. That one point in time when we can finally get off the roller coaster, take our child into our arms and begin our life as a new family.

I often picture that moment. I see my husband and I meeting our child for the first time. My husband has a little smirk on his face. He looks both happy and terrified at the same time. I have tears streaming down my face and am overwhelmed by how absolutely perfect our child is. I feel a joy I never imagined. When it does happen, I suppose it will all seem like dream.

And for now, it is just a dream. A dream we've worked very hard to make come true. I really believe that some day it will. Hopefully, that day is coming soon. :)

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Deanna

Nice Blog... we pray for you and Paul everyday.....

Your writing is very elequent... it will be a great gift for your child one day...that you loved them this much even before you knew them.....


May God Bless you

Dave

Debra Sue said...

I keep you and your family in our prayers. There was a time, not so long ago, when I never thought we would EVER be parents - and now we have three beautiful children. Keep up the faith and lean on those who love you.

Michelle said...

It seemed the same to me too..never have kids, and now I have my beautiful daughter!

Anonymous said...

After the roller coaster ride is over, most people are glad of the end result - the joy at the end of the ride. I'm sure this will be the case for you too. Unfortunately, the ride is lasting a little longer than it should though! Your blog is very touching - I still have tears in my eyes.

BJA said...

Deanna,
I love your Blog.You have so many people praying for you, even people you don't know.With all the prayers from everyone,I know they will be answered.It's been a long and difficult road,but in the end it will all be worth it.